Carry Across the Salt Flats, Crusader in a Strange Land…God and His People in Your Heart
And this is not only Me, but Every Man Who seeks after God and finds the periods of isolation and wayward wondering to be steadily difficult and troublesome. A binding of the Conscience in isolation..
Carry Across the Salt Flats, Crusader in a Strange Land…God and His People in Your Heart
I set away from My local congregation about 5 months ago. I do not have the courage, or strength to go back after having let them down in this way; the guilt and embarrassment has mounted.
Why I set away to begin with is that I felt I needed a sojourn of isolation as with a Monk and further that there was a forking of the river in My life, a watershed moment where I would take on more responsibility. A Mission and an adventure You see, that could only be partook outside of Their Company. And While I regret and feel saddened by not being any part in These People of God anymore…I do not foresee a reunion because of My Own person.
Yet these People of God occupy My mind and My thoughts and return in My Heart. How am I to repay and honour them. Pastor Vlad Savchuk said that to each person during the course of Your life (Whom You may encounter) there is a reason and a season, and I will say that These People have left Their inedible mark on My soul and My life.
But like a crusader carried off to a distant battlefield, I must make amends with the circumstance that I will not see Them anytime in the future that I can see.
As if carrying across the Salt Flats without an end in sight over the horizon, I am tortured with these feelings of remorse.
But what is the best that I can do in this circumstance? I think it is this, and I have been called by the Lord to do Battle. That I keep these People in My Heart along with Jesus Himself.
That when My Mind has run to the ends of the Earth I have Them with Me. And We will see each other again one day—a day in which I will not have to explain Myself but that the Journey and the Destination explain for Me. So in prayer I must remember Them and give thanks to God and to Christ for His Mercy.
You see because Now I have embarked on a Crusade and Matthew 6:33 has left its weighty words on Me “33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.”
What is the Kingdom of God, and How do I place His Righteousness in My Life?
Am I on the right Path? I must now only rely On Christ and the Spirit. Only They give the right answer in the Quiet in My room. And When I have strayed so far from listening to Counsel. The Counsel of the Word of God Must be the standard to which I march.
Now when I am leading My Compatriots, I believe that I must stop and open with Prayer of Thanks and Blessings—to keep Me to task and to grace.
So picture Here a Templar Crusader making His way across a Salt Flat in a strange land. Dragging His Sword, His heart thumping and His mind raced back to Home and the People He Once Knew. Where would He find refuge?
He must Walk Only By Faith. Only in Faith will His One-to-One Communion with God come into being.
In This critical stage in His Life He must Walk Alone, Alone with God. Across the Salt Flats, far from Home.
And this is not only Me, but Every Man Who seeks after God and finds the periods of isolation and wayward wondering to be steadily difficult and troublesome. A binding of the Conscience in isolation. An answer that can only Come from God. Verily, verily, —Greg W.